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Author: Rose Portillo
Publisher: Author House
ISBN: 1468566423
Category : Poetry
Languages : en
Pages : 290
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This book was written out of the feelings and some of the most sadness out of the depths of my heart and soul. It contains feelings from different times and many events of my life. So Pretty, So Many Tears has poems from many different emotions I have felt throughout my life. Some of the poems that are written in this book were written when I was 16 years old, although I have been writing since I was much younger, when I had already been physically and emotionally abused! Then I lost "The Love Of My Life." I fell in love with Tony when I was 12 years old. We got together when I was 16 and then we separated for a few years because of my family. We got back together when I turned 24 and he was 25 years old. A couple of days before he turned 27 years old, he passed away; yes, I lost my love, I lost my life, hence I lost my mind. When I finally gave my whole self to him and finally stopped worrying about what my family felt about him. Ever since then I have been truly going through years of so much denial of his death, self conviction and guilt over what happened and how it happened. I sank into the "Abyss of my empty soul," and I didn't want to be found because I knew deep inside if I found myself deep within my secretly wounded heart, I would realize and find out that I lost the only love I had ever had. He was my only friend and I knew that I would lose my mind if I ever lost him. There was no way that I wanted to live in this ugly world without him by my side, and I had told him that I would never be afraid of anything not even the end of the world, so long as he was there by my side even when the end of the world was occurring. I have been abused most of my life, first by my mother, then by my older brother, then later on when I got married to someone else other than my true love; I went through some inner hell tortures as well as physical tortures, with my husband always on drugs, such as heroine, crystal meth, and crack cocaine; when I didn't even know what all that stuff was or what it did to someone. Anyhow, the book contains all of my dreadful, melancholic, horrific details of just how much I had lost my mind. For I truly did lose my mind when Tony left my world. The only thing I had to stay alive for was my children that I already had and when "The One I Loved" left my world, I went insane but I didn't even know it, and neither did anyone else for that matter. I really didn't know how to handle living life without Tony. I needed to learn how to live again not only for myself but for my children, and the book does indeed hold the deepest fears, tears, and loves in my life. The book contains so many feelings tears and love and as one person put it, "So Pretty So Many Tears" when the tears wouldn't stop and how I couldn't stop thinking of and wanting to die! Like I said, I actually really lost my mind. There are many different poems in this book; some are regarding abuse, death, love, reincarnation and even living with physical pain as I do now and have been ever since the year of 2001; it seems as if once the denial stopped and the admission of Tony being dead occurred, the pain and suffering I had secretly been feeling in my heart and my soul, suddenly spurted out of me and showed and was now felt physically. For the secret I was holding within me was the secret I withheld even from my own self and that was that Tony was dead. I was full of secrets all of my life, first I held the secret from my family the love I had for Tony; he was my secret love. Then, I held the biggest secret from myself; the death of Tony's body but not the death of my love for him. There are also some poems from my granddaughter Vanessa Espitia and from two of my daughters, Desiree Grace and Princess Anna, both of whom I encourage to write all their thoughts and feelings from their heart, if that is what they want to do. Most of my 12 children are blessed with the talents of writing and art; along with some of my grandchildren. So Pretty
Author: Rose Portillo
Publisher: Author House
ISBN: 1468566423
Category : Poetry
Languages : en
Pages : 290
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This book was written out of the feelings and some of the most sadness out of the depths of my heart and soul. It contains feelings from different times and many events of my life. So Pretty, So Many Tears has poems from many different emotions I have felt throughout my life. Some of the poems that are written in this book were written when I was 16 years old, although I have been writing since I was much younger, when I had already been physically and emotionally abused! Then I lost "The Love Of My Life." I fell in love with Tony when I was 12 years old. We got together when I was 16 and then we separated for a few years because of my family. We got back together when I turned 24 and he was 25 years old. A couple of days before he turned 27 years old, he passed away; yes, I lost my love, I lost my life, hence I lost my mind. When I finally gave my whole self to him and finally stopped worrying about what my family felt about him. Ever since then I have been truly going through years of so much denial of his death, self conviction and guilt over what happened and how it happened. I sank into the "Abyss of my empty soul," and I didn't want to be found because I knew deep inside if I found myself deep within my secretly wounded heart, I would realize and find out that I lost the only love I had ever had. He was my only friend and I knew that I would lose my mind if I ever lost him. There was no way that I wanted to live in this ugly world without him by my side, and I had told him that I would never be afraid of anything not even the end of the world, so long as he was there by my side even when the end of the world was occurring. I have been abused most of my life, first by my mother, then by my older brother, then later on when I got married to someone else other than my true love; I went through some inner hell tortures as well as physical tortures, with my husband always on drugs, such as heroine, crystal meth, and crack cocaine; when I didn't even know what all that stuff was or what it did to someone. Anyhow, the book contains all of my dreadful, melancholic, horrific details of just how much I had lost my mind. For I truly did lose my mind when Tony left my world. The only thing I had to stay alive for was my children that I already had and when "The One I Loved" left my world, I went insane but I didn't even know it, and neither did anyone else for that matter. I really didn't know how to handle living life without Tony. I needed to learn how to live again not only for myself but for my children, and the book does indeed hold the deepest fears, tears, and loves in my life. The book contains so many feelings tears and love and as one person put it, "So Pretty So Many Tears" when the tears wouldn't stop and how I couldn't stop thinking of and wanting to die! Like I said, I actually really lost my mind. There are many different poems in this book; some are regarding abuse, death, love, reincarnation and even living with physical pain as I do now and have been ever since the year of 2001; it seems as if once the denial stopped and the admission of Tony being dead occurred, the pain and suffering I had secretly been feeling in my heart and my soul, suddenly spurted out of me and showed and was now felt physically. For the secret I was holding within me was the secret I withheld even from my own self and that was that Tony was dead. I was full of secrets all of my life, first I held the secret from my family the love I had for Tony; he was my secret love. Then, I held the biggest secret from myself; the death of Tony's body but not the death of my love for him. There are also some poems from my granddaughter Vanessa Espitia and from two of my daughters, Desiree Grace and Princess Anna, both of whom I encourage to write all their thoughts and feelings from their heart, if that is what they want to do. Most of my 12 children are blessed with the talents of writing and art; along with some of my grandchildren. So Pretty
Author: Fiona Doyle
Publisher: National Geographic Books
ISBN: 184488323X
Category : Biography & Autobiography
Languages : en
Pages : 0
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As heard on BBC Radio 4's Woman's Hour 'Ireland and its people know that Fiona Doyle is a trailblazer' Sunday Independent 'A wrenching read ... Doyle resists giving her story a Hollywood gloss' Irish Independent '[A] hopeful, horrific read' Ray D'Arcy, Today FM 'A testament to her resolve and courage. A remarkable story by a remarkable woman' Irish Times 'Always inspirational' National Women's Council of Ireland @NWCI 'Fiona Doyle is a hero' Roisin Ingle @roisiningle 'Well worth reading' Colette Fitzpatrick, MidWeek, TV3 Too Many Tears is the moving and inspiring story of how Fiona Doyle came through the agony and humiliation of being sexually abused by her father, how she foudn the strength to seek justice, and how she coped when, at the final hurdle, it appeared that he was about to escape prison. For as long as she can remember, and well into her teens, Fiona's father raped and abused her. Her mother blamed Fiona for leading him on. The effects on her life were catastrophic. Fiona first reported her father, Patrick O'Brien, to the authorities in the early nineties but the police investigation went nowhere. She made a second complaint in 2010 and this time, it appeared, O'Brien would face the consequences of his crimes . He, pleaded guilty to sexually assaulting his daughter and Fiona assumed the next time she came to court, he would be going to jail. Instead, shockingly, having suspended nine years of a twelve-year sentence, the judge released O'Brien on bail. Three days later, following a national outcry and questions in parliament, the presiding judge expressed his 'profound regret' to Fiona Doyle and sent O'Brien to jail. Too Many Tears is Fiona Doyle's story of abuse and its aftermath - the turmoil and isolation she experienced as a child and young girl, the devastating price she continued to pay in her adult life, and how finally she had the courage and tenacity to take on her father - and the authorities - to make him face up to what he had done. It is a startling and inspiring story of survival and hope against the odds.
Author: Louis-Ferdinand Céline
Publisher: Dalkey Archive Press
ISBN: 9781564781505
Category : Fiction
Languages : en
Pages : 372
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It is Germany near the end of World War II, the Allies have landed and members of the Vichy France government have been sequestered in a labyrinthine castle, replete with secret passages and subterranean hideaways. The group of 1,400 terrified officials, their wives, mistresses, flunkies, and Nazi "protectors"--including Celine, his wife, their cat, and an actor friend--attempt to postpone the postwar reckoning under the constant threat of air raids and starvation. With an undercurrent of sensual excitement, Celine paints an almost unbearably vivid picture of human society and the human condition.
Author: Thomas Colonna
Publisher: Strategic Book Publishing
ISBN: 1622129679
Category : Fiction
Languages : en
Pages : 135
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An illuminating look at what might have been, had mankind's worst moments never occurred, Before the Deluge is a book loaded with exciting twists that will fill your heart and imagination with possibilities. On the morning of September 11, 2001 life is stopped by a heavenly force that leaves every living soul in the United States in a frozen trance. A mystified writer, Christian, and two chosen angels, Donald and Elizabeth are sent by God on a journey back in time to 1776, when the United States was born as a nation. There the trio embarks upon a fantastic twenty-four hour journey back to the future, to the morning of Dec. 22, 2012. Along their way Christian and the angels visit horrific events throughout time and prevent them, thus striking them from history. Each change contributes to an unstoppable wave of peace that envelopes the whole world. Christian was chosen to write this wonderful story and tell it to all. So this is his story as he witnessed it. Let it carry you away to a beautiful place in your mind. It is the author's hope that the book's ending may lead to the beginning of a new way of looking at the world. About the Author: Thomas Colonna grew up in Valley Stream, Long Island and has owned and operated his own diesel repair center for the last 30 years. In his free time he enjoys singing, hiking, skiing and riding motorcycles. Before the Deluge is his first book. Publisher's website: http: //sbpra.com/ThomasColonna
Author: Lilly Mirren
Publisher: Black Lab Press
ISBN:
Category : Fiction
Languages : en
Pages : 342
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"Will capture your heart... a delightful mix of love, history, and redemption." - Reviewer Wrested back to Cabarita Beach by her grandmother's sudden death, Kate Summer discovers a mystery buried in the past that changes everything. Kate returns home to the sleepy hamlet of Cabarita Beach and the run-down Waratah Inn for her grandmother’s funeral. She spent many happy childhood years at the inn, but all she wants to do now is sell the dilapidated boutique inn and head back to the city and her busy, professional life. But she and her two estranged sisters discover they've inherited the inn together. To sell, they need all three sisters to agree to the sale. Soon, her carefully constructed life begins to unravel and Kate decides to stay in Cabarita Beach to renovate the elegant, old building. Despite her misgivings about reviving the crumbling structure, she quickly becomes consumed with crown moulding, history and an attractive horse wrangler she can't seem to ignore. When she discovers a clue to a mystery from the past in her grandmother's things, she'll be drawn down a path that raises more questions than answers. Piece-by-piece she and her sisters will uncover the secret former life of their beloved grandmother. A life of love, intrigue, and loss. A life they never knew she had. An opportunity to sell the Inn pushes them to make a choice: commit to the Waratah Inn and family, or walk away from the Inn and each other, back to their separate and isolated lives. The first book in a continuing series of four. Binge the entire series today. For fans of Debbie Macomber, Carolyn Brown, Danielle Steele, Grace Greene, and Pamela Kelley. NB. Includes a discussion guide and recipes.
Author: George Sand
Publisher:
ISBN:
Category : French fiction
Languages : en
Pages : 96
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Author: Miguel de Cervantes Saavedra
Publisher:
ISBN:
Category : Digital images
Languages : en
Pages : 444
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Author: Mrs. Oliphant (Margaret)
Publisher:
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Category :
Languages : en
Pages : 422
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Author: Anne Marie Erskine
Publisher: Dorrance Publishing
ISBN: 1637647077
Category : Fiction
Languages : en
Pages : 166
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Retribution By: Anne Marie Erskine Retribution focuses on the lives of six female bullies, the harm they cause, and the ironic twist they themselves create for their demise. While the subject of the novel itself is serious-bullying-the characters and their deserved endings are, in many ways, exaggerated dark comedies that will surprise and delight the reader, especially those readers who have suffered from the torment of a bully. Retribution presumes that all choices have consequences; that innocents must be protected at all costs; that people have the power, the right, and the duty to stand up for and protect innocents no matter the cost. The hero, Gemini Jones, is a sensitive but strong and resolute character who shows how to help Justice deliver its rightful reckoning. She is a role model for all heroes who desire to bring good and light to the world. Retribution is a novel of hope and satisfaction for those who have been bullied and know that evil must be punished and defeated. It is a novel for all who believe in Justice and want to see it prevail. In the end, Justice always reigns when GOOD fights for it.
Author: Juman Kubba
Publisher: McFarland
ISBN: 0786481072
Category : History
Languages : en
Pages : 200
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Few countries in contemporary times have had more political intrigue, violence and terror than the Iraq of Saddam Hussein's Ba'ath party. The atrocities of the Iraqi government, which were highlighted only after the Gulf War and are now receiving much attention, actually began in the 1970s. There are few accounts of what individuals endured, what everyday life was like, and the impact that Saddam Hussein's repressive regime has had on the lives of Iraqi citizens. The author of this remarkable memoir recounts growing up in Baghdad in the 70s during the early days of Saddam Hussein's reign. She describes in detail her family's fear and the cruel punishment they suffered when her father, a successful professional from a renowned, high-profile family, discovered the direct involvement of Iraqi authorities in the notorious Abu Tubar serial killings that rocked Baghdad.
