Author: Manoj K Verma
Publisher: Orangebooks Publication
ISBN:
Category : Poetry
Languages : en
Pages : 49
Book Description
“Broken Souls Journey” is the expression of undercurrent emotions of self-respect, companionship, love, lust, dream and despair of people (gender-neutral), who face toxic & abusive behavior (physical or mental) in daily-life, compiled in the form of poems. Volume 1 depicts the story - of abuse, struggle, suspense on one hand, and of hope, desires, dilemma on the other hand - of the “lone-fighters”. Volume 2 would comprehend how things fared for the protagonist’s of the stories. Stay tuned!
Broken Souls Journey
Author: Manoj K Verma
Publisher: Orangebooks Publication
ISBN:
Category : Poetry
Languages : en
Pages : 49
Book Description
“Broken Souls Journey” is the expression of undercurrent emotions of self-respect, companionship, love, lust, dream and despair of people (gender-neutral), who face toxic & abusive behavior (physical or mental) in daily-life, compiled in the form of poems. Volume 1 depicts the story - of abuse, struggle, suspense on one hand, and of hope, desires, dilemma on the other hand - of the “lone-fighters”. Volume 2 would comprehend how things fared for the protagonist’s of the stories. Stay tuned!
Publisher: Orangebooks Publication
ISBN:
Category : Poetry
Languages : en
Pages : 49
Book Description
“Broken Souls Journey” is the expression of undercurrent emotions of self-respect, companionship, love, lust, dream and despair of people (gender-neutral), who face toxic & abusive behavior (physical or mental) in daily-life, compiled in the form of poems. Volume 1 depicts the story - of abuse, struggle, suspense on one hand, and of hope, desires, dilemma on the other hand - of the “lone-fighters”. Volume 2 would comprehend how things fared for the protagonist’s of the stories. Stay tuned!
Broken Soul
Author: Cindy Pike
Publisher:
ISBN: 9781692286354
Category :
Languages : en
Pages : 231
Book Description
TRIGGER WARNING: This book contains graphic and frankly violent scenes, including rape, physical and emotional violence, animal abuse, and psychological turmoil. Please don't take this warning lightly. It's brutal at times and I don't want anyone to be harmed from the words I've written. If you or someone you know needs help, please know you're worth it! National Abuse Hotline 800-799-SAFEI find myself in a dark alley with the dickhead that tried hitting on me in a bar, beating the ever loving shit out of me. Why you ask? Well, when he grabbed me inappropriately and without my permission I kind of lost it and may or may not have but definitely did, emasculate him in front of all his friends in the bar, and everyone else. Thinking that was end of it I moved on, clearly, he didn't as my current situation proves. From there a tattooed man scares him off and gets me to help. Little do I know him and his friends are going to become a permanent part of my life, helping me heal both mentally and physically. Kyle, Flynn, Owen, Silas, and Heath all stand next to me helping with my issues and keeping me safe as I work through things from my past that pop up from this recent attack. When it turns out I have a stalker, they guys draw closer to me as we all try to navigate my crazy life. In getting to know them and spending time with them, I've come to realize I like them, all five of them. Does that make me selfish? Yep. Can we all make this work? I guess we'll see... This book contains some cliffhangers, not all plots get resolved in this book. It is reverse harem where the heroine ends ups with at least three of the guys.
Publisher:
ISBN: 9781692286354
Category :
Languages : en
Pages : 231
Book Description
TRIGGER WARNING: This book contains graphic and frankly violent scenes, including rape, physical and emotional violence, animal abuse, and psychological turmoil. Please don't take this warning lightly. It's brutal at times and I don't want anyone to be harmed from the words I've written. If you or someone you know needs help, please know you're worth it! National Abuse Hotline 800-799-SAFEI find myself in a dark alley with the dickhead that tried hitting on me in a bar, beating the ever loving shit out of me. Why you ask? Well, when he grabbed me inappropriately and without my permission I kind of lost it and may or may not have but definitely did, emasculate him in front of all his friends in the bar, and everyone else. Thinking that was end of it I moved on, clearly, he didn't as my current situation proves. From there a tattooed man scares him off and gets me to help. Little do I know him and his friends are going to become a permanent part of my life, helping me heal both mentally and physically. Kyle, Flynn, Owen, Silas, and Heath all stand next to me helping with my issues and keeping me safe as I work through things from my past that pop up from this recent attack. When it turns out I have a stalker, they guys draw closer to me as we all try to navigate my crazy life. In getting to know them and spending time with them, I've come to realize I like them, all five of them. Does that make me selfish? Yep. Can we all make this work? I guess we'll see... This book contains some cliffhangers, not all plots get resolved in this book. It is reverse harem where the heroine ends ups with at least three of the guys.
Broken Souls
Author: Stephen Blackmoore
Publisher: Jabberwocky Literary Agency, Inc.
ISBN: 1625675283
Category : Fiction
Languages : en
Pages : 232
Book Description
Stephen Blackmoore's hard-bitten necromancer Eric Carter returns in this noir urban fantasy series populated by ghosts, gods, and monsters bringing murder and mayhem to the mortal world. When he returned to L.A. to find his sister’s murderer, Eric Carter knew it would be a rough ride. Especially since he managed to make more than his share of enemies in the city—both in this world and the next. Like his new wife. Who happens to be the patron saint of death, Santa Muerte. She has him walking the razor’s edge. And even the if unholy union has increased his magical powers—it’s slowly killing him both physically and mentally. Carter’s going to have break his connection to the Aztec goddess before she breaks him into pieces. And then things get really interesting. As he tries to find a way out of his predicament, Carter crosses paths with a twisted, ruthless killer can assume his victim’s form and inherit their powers—which barely discovers surviving when the monster tries to kill him. But why? That’s what Carter would very much like to ask them. So he’s going to hunt them down and ask them—and not nicely. That is, if his prey doesn’t turn predator... ...and take more than just his life... Praise for the Eric Carter series: “Blackmoore employs Chandleresque prose to smoothly incorporate a hard-boiled sense of urban despair into a paranormal plot, with occasional leavening provided by smart-aleck humor.” — Publishers Weekly on Dead Things "In a world where Aztec Mythology, dark magic and grim reality blend together, nothing is what it appears to be... Best of all, Blackmoore’s chillingly good storytelling skills ensures that fans will enjoy every step of this adrenaline fueled journey.” — RT Book Reviews (Top Pick) on Broken Souls “This series is so fucking good. Blackmoore can’t write these books fast enough to suit me. BROKEN SOULS is hyper-caffeinated, turbo-bloody face-stomping fun. This is the L.A-noir urban fantasy you’ve been looking for.” — Kevin Hearne, Author of The Iron Druid Chronicles "Carter’s wry voice is amusing as ever, but the grief he carries is palpable, adding depth and a sense of desperation to this action-packed adventure. Readers will be eager for more after this thrilling, emotionally fraught installment.” — Publishers Weekly on Ghost Money, Starred Review Series Order: 1. Dead Things 2. Broken Souls 3. Hungry Ghosts 4. Fire Season 5. Ghost Money 6. Bottle Demon
Publisher: Jabberwocky Literary Agency, Inc.
ISBN: 1625675283
Category : Fiction
Languages : en
Pages : 232
Book Description
Stephen Blackmoore's hard-bitten necromancer Eric Carter returns in this noir urban fantasy series populated by ghosts, gods, and monsters bringing murder and mayhem to the mortal world. When he returned to L.A. to find his sister’s murderer, Eric Carter knew it would be a rough ride. Especially since he managed to make more than his share of enemies in the city—both in this world and the next. Like his new wife. Who happens to be the patron saint of death, Santa Muerte. She has him walking the razor’s edge. And even the if unholy union has increased his magical powers—it’s slowly killing him both physically and mentally. Carter’s going to have break his connection to the Aztec goddess before she breaks him into pieces. And then things get really interesting. As he tries to find a way out of his predicament, Carter crosses paths with a twisted, ruthless killer can assume his victim’s form and inherit their powers—which barely discovers surviving when the monster tries to kill him. But why? That’s what Carter would very much like to ask them. So he’s going to hunt them down and ask them—and not nicely. That is, if his prey doesn’t turn predator... ...and take more than just his life... Praise for the Eric Carter series: “Blackmoore employs Chandleresque prose to smoothly incorporate a hard-boiled sense of urban despair into a paranormal plot, with occasional leavening provided by smart-aleck humor.” — Publishers Weekly on Dead Things "In a world where Aztec Mythology, dark magic and grim reality blend together, nothing is what it appears to be... Best of all, Blackmoore’s chillingly good storytelling skills ensures that fans will enjoy every step of this adrenaline fueled journey.” — RT Book Reviews (Top Pick) on Broken Souls “This series is so fucking good. Blackmoore can’t write these books fast enough to suit me. BROKEN SOULS is hyper-caffeinated, turbo-bloody face-stomping fun. This is the L.A-noir urban fantasy you’ve been looking for.” — Kevin Hearne, Author of The Iron Druid Chronicles "Carter’s wry voice is amusing as ever, but the grief he carries is palpable, adding depth and a sense of desperation to this action-packed adventure. Readers will be eager for more after this thrilling, emotionally fraught installment.” — Publishers Weekly on Ghost Money, Starred Review Series Order: 1. Dead Things 2. Broken Souls 3. Hungry Ghosts 4. Fire Season 5. Ghost Money 6. Bottle Demon
Madness From a Broken Soul
Author: Jamal Cadoura
Publisher:
ISBN: 9781793189981
Category :
Languages : en
Pages : 168
Book Description
Madness From a Broken Soul is Jamal Cadoura's debut poetry and prose book, which poignantly exhibits the human journey and emotional depth. From love to heartache, and from struggle to growth, Cadoura masterfully interweaves his own experiences into his writing to offer insight, hope, and inspiration. This collection is one for the ages.
Publisher:
ISBN: 9781793189981
Category :
Languages : en
Pages : 168
Book Description
Madness From a Broken Soul is Jamal Cadoura's debut poetry and prose book, which poignantly exhibits the human journey and emotional depth. From love to heartache, and from struggle to growth, Cadoura masterfully interweaves his own experiences into his writing to offer insight, hope, and inspiration. This collection is one for the ages.
Broken Souls
Author: Patricia Gibney
Publisher: Sphere
ISBN: 9780751582673
Category :
Languages : en
Pages : 0
Book Description
'Lottie Parker is one of the most compelling characters in Irish detective fiction' LIZ NUGENT, bestselling author of Our Little Cruelties She shivered, though the kitchen was warm. Icicles of foreboding trickled down her spine. With trembling hands she whipped back her hair at the nape of her neck. As she turned away from the window, she missed the shadow passing by. One dark winter morning, bride-to-be Cara Dunne is found hanging in her home, dressed in her wedding dress, with a lock of hair removed. Detective Lottie Parker is first on the scene. Looking at Cara's bruised and battered body, she wonders who could have hated her enough to kill her at the happiest time of her life. The case takes a darker turn that afternoon with another shocking discovery; the broken body of a second young woman, pushed from the roof of the hospital where she worked. Fiona Heffernan was also due to be married, and her body is clad in a wedding dress, a lock of her hair cut off. The killings seem so personal that Lottie is convinced the girls have been killed by someone they knew. When she goes to break the news to Fiona's family, she's on the alert for anything suspicious. But then she makes a discovery that causes her blood to run cold; Fiona's eight-year-old daughter Lily didn't return home from her dance recital that afternoon. Terrified that Lily will be the next victim of a twisted and dangerous individual, Lottie takes the case into her own hands, risking her life when she comes face-to-face with the killer. If you love Karin Slaughter, Robert Dugoni and Rachel Caine, you'll be hooked by this heart-stopping thriller from Patricia Gibney. Broken Souls will keep you guessing until the very last page! Read what everybody is saying about Broken Souls: 'Totally addictive and I loved it!! . . . This is a thrill a minute police procedural that just doesn't let up, so many twists and lots going on it really is unputdownable, but that comes as no surprise as every book in this series has been a 5-star read' Goodreads Reviewer, FIVE STARS 'I love the twists and turns in the plot that keep you guessing right to the end. And that ending! My heart was breaking. I cannot wait for the next one!' Goodreads Reviewer, FIVE STARS 'It was as brilliant as all of the other books in this series. A great storyline with all the usual twists and turns we expect from Patricia's writing but a few red herrings in there. Just as I think I have it figured out a spanner is thrown into the works and I have to think again. I couldn't put it down. Bring on the next book, I can't wait!!' Netgalley Reviewer, FIVE STARS 'A fabulous mix of thrills, mystery, psychological mind twists and a clever, thick plot . . . A gripping page-turning, riveting book. Highly recommend' Goodreads Reviewer What an amazing book. I couldn't put it down. had my attention from start to finish. plenty of suspense and twists and turns. just when i thought i had it figured out i was proven wrong. will definitely recommend. Can't wait for more' Goodreads Reviewer, FIVE STARS
Publisher: Sphere
ISBN: 9780751582673
Category :
Languages : en
Pages : 0
Book Description
'Lottie Parker is one of the most compelling characters in Irish detective fiction' LIZ NUGENT, bestselling author of Our Little Cruelties She shivered, though the kitchen was warm. Icicles of foreboding trickled down her spine. With trembling hands she whipped back her hair at the nape of her neck. As she turned away from the window, she missed the shadow passing by. One dark winter morning, bride-to-be Cara Dunne is found hanging in her home, dressed in her wedding dress, with a lock of hair removed. Detective Lottie Parker is first on the scene. Looking at Cara's bruised and battered body, she wonders who could have hated her enough to kill her at the happiest time of her life. The case takes a darker turn that afternoon with another shocking discovery; the broken body of a second young woman, pushed from the roof of the hospital where she worked. Fiona Heffernan was also due to be married, and her body is clad in a wedding dress, a lock of her hair cut off. The killings seem so personal that Lottie is convinced the girls have been killed by someone they knew. When she goes to break the news to Fiona's family, she's on the alert for anything suspicious. But then she makes a discovery that causes her blood to run cold; Fiona's eight-year-old daughter Lily didn't return home from her dance recital that afternoon. Terrified that Lily will be the next victim of a twisted and dangerous individual, Lottie takes the case into her own hands, risking her life when she comes face-to-face with the killer. If you love Karin Slaughter, Robert Dugoni and Rachel Caine, you'll be hooked by this heart-stopping thriller from Patricia Gibney. Broken Souls will keep you guessing until the very last page! Read what everybody is saying about Broken Souls: 'Totally addictive and I loved it!! . . . This is a thrill a minute police procedural that just doesn't let up, so many twists and lots going on it really is unputdownable, but that comes as no surprise as every book in this series has been a 5-star read' Goodreads Reviewer, FIVE STARS 'I love the twists and turns in the plot that keep you guessing right to the end. And that ending! My heart was breaking. I cannot wait for the next one!' Goodreads Reviewer, FIVE STARS 'It was as brilliant as all of the other books in this series. A great storyline with all the usual twists and turns we expect from Patricia's writing but a few red herrings in there. Just as I think I have it figured out a spanner is thrown into the works and I have to think again. I couldn't put it down. Bring on the next book, I can't wait!!' Netgalley Reviewer, FIVE STARS 'A fabulous mix of thrills, mystery, psychological mind twists and a clever, thick plot . . . A gripping page-turning, riveting book. Highly recommend' Goodreads Reviewer What an amazing book. I couldn't put it down. had my attention from start to finish. plenty of suspense and twists and turns. just when i thought i had it figured out i was proven wrong. will definitely recommend. Can't wait for more' Goodreads Reviewer, FIVE STARS
The Broken Souls (Carson Ryder, Book 3)
Author: J. A. Kerley
Publisher: HarperCollins UK
ISBN: 0007346417
Category : Fiction
Languages : en
Pages : 562
Book Description
A brilliant new psychological serial killer thriller featuring homicide detective Carson Ryder, hero of the bestselling ‘The Hundredth Man’ and ‘Her Last Scream.’
Publisher: HarperCollins UK
ISBN: 0007346417
Category : Fiction
Languages : en
Pages : 562
Book Description
A brilliant new psychological serial killer thriller featuring homicide detective Carson Ryder, hero of the bestselling ‘The Hundredth Man’ and ‘Her Last Scream.’
Broken Spirits Lost Souls
Author: Jane E. Ryan
Publisher: iUniverse
ISBN: 059529717X
Category : Attachment behavior in children
Languages : en
Pages : 445
Book Description
Broken Spirits Lost Souls provides a rare, valuable look at a silent yet potentially deadly problem plaguing families today, Reactive Attachment Disorder (RAD). Children born into crisis or ambivalence are vulnerable to attachment disturbances because the roots of this horrendous disorder occur when basic life enhancing needs of newborns and infants go unnoticed or unmet. Consequently, children who are victims of early neglect or trauma are at grave risk. The candid stories in Broken Spirits Lost Souls, told by parents of disturbed youngsters, paint a clear picture of their chilling, dangerous behavior. Attachment disorder may be demonstrated by out-of-control children as young as three years old. By their teens, these kids predictably defy authority and challenge every accepted familial and societal norm. At their best, individuals with RAD represent the embryonic stages of an antisocial personality, at their worst they are full-blown psychopaths consumed by the search for another victim. RAD is not a rare phenomenon and is primarily preventable through early identification and by employing simple, sound parenting skills.
Publisher: iUniverse
ISBN: 059529717X
Category : Attachment behavior in children
Languages : en
Pages : 445
Book Description
Broken Spirits Lost Souls provides a rare, valuable look at a silent yet potentially deadly problem plaguing families today, Reactive Attachment Disorder (RAD). Children born into crisis or ambivalence are vulnerable to attachment disturbances because the roots of this horrendous disorder occur when basic life enhancing needs of newborns and infants go unnoticed or unmet. Consequently, children who are victims of early neglect or trauma are at grave risk. The candid stories in Broken Spirits Lost Souls, told by parents of disturbed youngsters, paint a clear picture of their chilling, dangerous behavior. Attachment disorder may be demonstrated by out-of-control children as young as three years old. By their teens, these kids predictably defy authority and challenge every accepted familial and societal norm. At their best, individuals with RAD represent the embryonic stages of an antisocial personality, at their worst they are full-blown psychopaths consumed by the search for another victim. RAD is not a rare phenomenon and is primarily preventable through early identification and by employing simple, sound parenting skills.
Broken and Whole
Author: Stephen A. Macchia
Publisher: InterVarsity Press
ISBN: 0830899170
Category : Religion
Languages : en
Pages : 212
Book Description
Ministry leader Steve Macchia has come to understand his own brokenness. Writing from his own experience, he offers the gifts of love found in 1 Corinthians 13 as the antidote to our brokenness, along with spiritual assessment tools for the leader's personal reflection. By embracing and befriending our own brokenness, we can find wholeness in God's strength.
Publisher: InterVarsity Press
ISBN: 0830899170
Category : Religion
Languages : en
Pages : 212
Book Description
Ministry leader Steve Macchia has come to understand his own brokenness. Writing from his own experience, he offers the gifts of love found in 1 Corinthians 13 as the antidote to our brokenness, along with spiritual assessment tools for the leader's personal reflection. By embracing and befriending our own brokenness, we can find wholeness in God's strength.
Seven Broken Souls
Author: Bull Durham
Publisher:
ISBN: 9781728373232
Category :
Languages : en
Pages : 224
Book Description
This is my real life story about the parents that emotionally, verbally and physically abused me. They left me with lifelong physical and emotional scars that I would have to first recognize and then fight to overcome. I have no back up or safety net to rely on in life, its just me and always has been. When I turned 17, I started life on my own, paying my own way and making my own mistakes at my own peril. I worked extremely hard to put myself through high school, college and became a Vice President at one of the nations largest banks only to see my bosses and those above me with power retaliate against me time and time again before and after I was a whistle blower. I have tried to become better at everything I do from school, work, my health and own the mistakes I made, but I wont let anyone take my integrity away from me, I've worked too hard at it and for it. I'm healthier than I have ever been, but my family isn't and wont get the help they need. I have lost most of my family as well during this process of recovery. I had money, success, and dated some of the most beautiful women inside and out, but none of that made me happy until God started showing me I had to love myself before I could love anyone or anything else. I was in survival mode for almost 25 years and now I'm unleashing the bull that my grandfather always referred to me as. I have had multiple surgeries, hospital emergency room visits and therapists because of the damage my parents did, but I have never used these as an crutch. I haven't always done the right things in my personal life, but I have worked with the highest integrity in my professional career with my clients to ensure success for them and myself. This bank and HVAC retailer only care about money, keeping their secrets and will try to run over anyone that gets in their way. Both of these companies are about to learn if you mess with the bull you're going to get the horns!!!! Make no mistake a stagecoach and horses are no match for a bull!!!
Publisher:
ISBN: 9781728373232
Category :
Languages : en
Pages : 224
Book Description
This is my real life story about the parents that emotionally, verbally and physically abused me. They left me with lifelong physical and emotional scars that I would have to first recognize and then fight to overcome. I have no back up or safety net to rely on in life, its just me and always has been. When I turned 17, I started life on my own, paying my own way and making my own mistakes at my own peril. I worked extremely hard to put myself through high school, college and became a Vice President at one of the nations largest banks only to see my bosses and those above me with power retaliate against me time and time again before and after I was a whistle blower. I have tried to become better at everything I do from school, work, my health and own the mistakes I made, but I wont let anyone take my integrity away from me, I've worked too hard at it and for it. I'm healthier than I have ever been, but my family isn't and wont get the help they need. I have lost most of my family as well during this process of recovery. I had money, success, and dated some of the most beautiful women inside and out, but none of that made me happy until God started showing me I had to love myself before I could love anyone or anything else. I was in survival mode for almost 25 years and now I'm unleashing the bull that my grandfather always referred to me as. I have had multiple surgeries, hospital emergency room visits and therapists because of the damage my parents did, but I have never used these as an crutch. I haven't always done the right things in my personal life, but I have worked with the highest integrity in my professional career with my clients to ensure success for them and myself. This bank and HVAC retailer only care about money, keeping their secrets and will try to run over anyone that gets in their way. Both of these companies are about to learn if you mess with the bull you're going to get the horns!!!! Make no mistake a stagecoach and horses are no match for a bull!!!
Broken Road
Author: Darrin Dixon
Publisher: Createspace Independent Publishing Platform
ISBN: 9781974032303
Category :
Languages : en
Pages : 226
Book Description
Once upon a time, I viewed the Air Force as my personal entertainment and dating service. I was a hard-charging, well-paid, impeccably-educated, high-functioning, award-winning anesthetist and clinical instructor of anesthesia as well as an Air Force captain on my way to becoming a colonel in record time. Beyond that, I worked in a highly specialized area of the military, dabbling in the shadowy world behind the scenes in places some have never heard of, in situations that rarely make the nightly news. Known by important people, I was a guy who could "get 'er done" no matter what the order or mission at hand. On call twenty-four hours a day, I never knew when my next mission would be called. One moment in the operating room in San Antonio, the next on a plane bound for some unnamed location for reasons I wasn't privy to. Leaving my strict Baptist upbringing behind, I was living my dream of becoming a "hero," while fueling my ever burgeoning need for newness and more, sleeping my way around the world with no rules and no conscience.One woman, my childhood image of the "girl next door," changed all that. We met in the back anesthesia hallway at Wilford Hall U.S. Air Force Medical Center. She, a mere first year anesthesiology resident. Me, a superstar staff nurse anesthetist. Despite her lowly position, she was clearly the kindest and sexiest woman I'd ever met. Within a month of our first date, I chose to forego my aspirations of military glory and "settle down." However, soon after Joan and I married, I felt trapped. Trapped by what I recognized as the mundane life of my parents. Trapped by Joan's desire to bear a child. Trapped to the point that I began fantasizing about her death. Then came the call. Twenty-five weeks into her pregnancy, Joan was diagnosed with leukemia. In the blink of an eye, I was transformed from my own personal cynosure to the husband of the pregnant lady with cancer, caretaker, guardian of my wife and daughter's lives, and reluctant chief decision maker on how to reconcile my desperate desire for her to live with her disdain for life support measures. This story depicts not only the battle against cancer faced by Joan and our unborn child, but also my own attempt to move past earlier misdeeds, desperately praying for a miracle, hoping that, despite my sins, God would deign to save the woman and child I loved. Written from the perspective of a former military true believer who turned his back on dreams of glory, chose love, and became a (hesitant) husband, then single father, Broken Road: A Widower' is similar to Nadia Bolz-Weber's Accidental Saints and Anne Lamott's Small Victories: Spotting Improbable Moments of Grace. It seeks to find goodness in the most unlikely of places and characters - me.
Publisher: Createspace Independent Publishing Platform
ISBN: 9781974032303
Category :
Languages : en
Pages : 226
Book Description
Once upon a time, I viewed the Air Force as my personal entertainment and dating service. I was a hard-charging, well-paid, impeccably-educated, high-functioning, award-winning anesthetist and clinical instructor of anesthesia as well as an Air Force captain on my way to becoming a colonel in record time. Beyond that, I worked in a highly specialized area of the military, dabbling in the shadowy world behind the scenes in places some have never heard of, in situations that rarely make the nightly news. Known by important people, I was a guy who could "get 'er done" no matter what the order or mission at hand. On call twenty-four hours a day, I never knew when my next mission would be called. One moment in the operating room in San Antonio, the next on a plane bound for some unnamed location for reasons I wasn't privy to. Leaving my strict Baptist upbringing behind, I was living my dream of becoming a "hero," while fueling my ever burgeoning need for newness and more, sleeping my way around the world with no rules and no conscience.One woman, my childhood image of the "girl next door," changed all that. We met in the back anesthesia hallway at Wilford Hall U.S. Air Force Medical Center. She, a mere first year anesthesiology resident. Me, a superstar staff nurse anesthetist. Despite her lowly position, she was clearly the kindest and sexiest woman I'd ever met. Within a month of our first date, I chose to forego my aspirations of military glory and "settle down." However, soon after Joan and I married, I felt trapped. Trapped by what I recognized as the mundane life of my parents. Trapped by Joan's desire to bear a child. Trapped to the point that I began fantasizing about her death. Then came the call. Twenty-five weeks into her pregnancy, Joan was diagnosed with leukemia. In the blink of an eye, I was transformed from my own personal cynosure to the husband of the pregnant lady with cancer, caretaker, guardian of my wife and daughter's lives, and reluctant chief decision maker on how to reconcile my desperate desire for her to live with her disdain for life support measures. This story depicts not only the battle against cancer faced by Joan and our unborn child, but also my own attempt to move past earlier misdeeds, desperately praying for a miracle, hoping that, despite my sins, God would deign to save the woman and child I loved. Written from the perspective of a former military true believer who turned his back on dreams of glory, chose love, and became a (hesitant) husband, then single father, Broken Road: A Widower' is similar to Nadia Bolz-Weber's Accidental Saints and Anne Lamott's Small Victories: Spotting Improbable Moments of Grace. It seeks to find goodness in the most unlikely of places and characters - me.